Y Tuesday, November 02, 2004
9.10 pm.
Morning woke up abit unusual. Woke up without the alarm, but I'm still on bed, waiting for the alarm to go off... 7.20am, still early, hit the alarm and close my eyes... waiting for 7.30 am ring. Ok. 7.30 am... had to drag myself up... These 2 nights (Sunday and Mondy) I felt as if I did't sleep at all... Laid myself on the bed, but tossed here and there... couldn't fall asleep... could hear my sister chatting on the phone last night. Even if I've fallen asleep, it was a light one... my head is awake I think... Had a nice sweet dream, a dream about dear. Happily together. Sweet!~~ Aniwae, woke up and on the pc, check on emails and bloggies, no tag for me... so sad... wondering if anyone even read! If no one read... den it's good, coz sometimes I feel the bloggie too open, too hard to keep in emotions and stuff... have to be real careful on the selection of words.... coz it might meant hurtful things for the wrong person or wat... Chose my clothes and go bathe... came out and usual had to "iron" my stupid hair again. STUPID ME!!! Almost late... my neighbour was waiting for the lift... and she saw me coming out.... so she held the lift for me... gosh... stop at 12, den 3, den 2 den 1!!!! Hey people who lived in 2nd or 3rd floor... dun take lift la! I'm already late and the lift had to be open for 2nd and 3rd floor people!
Okie... took the bus to the MRT coz the bus arrived once I crossed the road. Den at the bus stop near the MRT, saw that guy again. A plump guy, middle aged. He was standing at the bus stop waiting... waiting for me... I think. Once I got off the bus, I noticed he began walking to the MRT too.... He was walking behind me and making those noise (like when u kiss those kind... like u call out on people... something like "psst psst", but not those, aiya I duno how to describe la) behind me... but I didn't bother to turn back, and I hastened my foot steps... in fear.... This is not the 1st time, been several times already... OMG! Once I stood some where near him in the cabin, and he begun humming.... quite loud and most of the people are irritated by him! And worst of all, that time I had send in my discman for service and the train was too crowded for me to move and stayed there till Dolby Gaut (coz he alighted off there)... My ears were in pain. The next time while I was in the cabin, he came in and tried to stand near me... but this time I smart, I moved away... But luckily today he didn't board the train I was taking today... he just stood outside... I think tomorro I'm going to take 1 train earlier... so scary...
In the train, standing as usual, saw 1 couple, quite loving. The guy is holding the girl, I mean hugging. With the back of the girl leaning against the front of the guy la. Both about 30+ - 40+ of age... How I wished I would be like this when I'm 30+ years old. The last time I took a train while hugging.... was... I can't remember.. maybe was the trip to Buona Vista, to collect the car or wat... or even earlier than that... It's been long long time ago... I missed those times!
Back to my hectic work load today. Alot of things to do.... phone calls non stop... OMG!!! Yesterday worked till 6.35 pm.... so busy lately... Now Bangkok dangerous, people dun wan go there, tickets have to be send in for refund, but some special fare tickets can't be refund. Den have to email to the Ticketing there, ask them can do wat... den they said... to reissue the tickets... oh man... I hate to reissue de lor.. So many things to do... have to print and type nicely and fax over and wait for it to come back... Awww..... I've realised that I've made 2 mistakes in the previous ticket issuance... hope can salvage the problem.... still waiting for the authorisation to come back... aww... well, at least I noe know what should be done or wat so ever la.... I've got a dateline tomoro, and I hope it wun be cancel tomoro. Please pray hard for me k?
Had lunch alone today again. Karina is back but gone out for sales... Ate "You Mian"... but ate only 1/4. Hungry but couldn't eat... I've found no mood to finish up the bowl.... HOW? HOW? HOW? How can I get back my mood??? Maybe I've left it somewhere.... must search for it soon... else I can't continue.... Went to the "Majestic" to shop... went to "Jean Yip", asked how much is the rebonding... he said.. $148 + cut... well.. it's cheaper den the AUNTIE lor... who sell me at $200! Such a low class saloon can sell so ex... Hello... people is "Jean Yip" lor... $148 only. But.... nah.... wun be doing it soo soon... I dun wana spoil my hair... sob!!!~ Endure!!~~ Endurance!!!~~
Walked around Popular Book Shop.... found nothing... but mind is loaded... I can't recall.... all is well...all is forgotten. I've been having short term memory... can't remember... getting older and older.... Oh dear! Aniwae.... nothin to see la... except comic books... $5 a book... if got 10 books den $50 le.... comic books after read is nothin le wor... who will wan to read again? I loved to read.. but read once... den throw... well something like magazines la... but magazines can be shared ma... who wants to read comics? Not much people loved to.... I duno la......
When on my way to the toilet today, saw this young gal who offered her help to this old lady (I think she collect card box paper to sell) She's realli a bery nice ger u no.... must be like her...
Work ended quite late again... 6.30 pm... headed for Sengkang Library, stupid me, should have searched whether the book is available before I go there... abit wasted my trip... ended up.. only find 2 lines... OMG!! Realli wasted my trip. Didn't walk much... nothing to walk... especially alone... yes... alone.... I hate loneiness...
Went to the interchange... and had to go to the board to check that the bus which I'm taking is correct.... dun wanna end up is some "Ulu" place.... but aniwae it's correct la... I'm the 1st in the queue... I thot the bus had just left de lor, was thinking... Shit.. have to wait bery long le... haiz... but lei... hahaha... the bus came quite fast... Yeah.. went on the bus! I took out the HP den sent a msg out... waited for it quite long... no reply. Head's spinning, even low mood, low mode.
The bus stopped behind. Had to walk... well... take my time... walked through Hougang Green. Reached home.... at 8.15 pm... Mum had cut out the fruits, so me just sit there and eat da fruits... and watched tv... watched Joey's show on Channel 55. Quite funny de lor.... watched the show 8.45 pm den go bathe... after dat ate my dinner, my mum had heated the dish for me.... 9.00pm den eat... late dinner.... Took it quite fast... I think 10 mins, including dish washing... didn't eat much... I had no mood to eat, aiyo, no appetite.
So on my pc now... and began blogging... I wanted to check out Ian's blog, but nothin was said... sad. I finally received a msg back... "Lost." So am I. LOST. I'm tired. Scared. LOST. What am I blabbering? Crazy me....
Friday's class gathering had been postponed to next friday. What should I do this Friday? Shop? Sleep or wat? Can anyone tell me huh???
My present is ready for collection... $3 off.. special deal from my "KOR".... Yeash... It's something tat I've ordered weeks ago... finalli it's here! But can't pick it up yet... coz no time to meet up wz her.... she shall take care of my present at the moment de lor...
I'm tired...
Signing off*
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